Monday, December 31, 2012

Kaelah's Corner (Dec 2012):
Out with the Old, In with the New


As I already wrote in my recent retrospective post, 2012 has been a very stressful and challenging year for Ludwig and me, and one without much kinky fun. But it was the most productive year so far blog-wise. Thank you all for having accompanied us on our journey!

Right now, there is a high level of uncertainty regarding important fields of our lives, and I'm not sure what 2013 will bring. The only thing I know is that there will be several major changes. Some things will come to on end, new adventures are about to begin.

Fitting to the changes in life, I am in the process of throwing out old things at home in order to have more space again (some of it to be used for new things, some of it just to be used to have more room to breathe). In my opinion, most people have a tendency to keep things which they don't need at all and which only occupy precious space in their homes. I am one of them, especially when it comes to things which I have been given by people I love. But I need a clean place and lots of free space as well, in order to feel happy and at home, so I have developed new strategies that allow me to let go of things I don't need. One which was recommended to me by a friend is taking photographs for the memories before giving away items which have a personal meaning.

In the last two days, Ludwig helped me to decide which clothes to give away. Now, compared to many other women, I don't buy lots of clothes (or shoes and the like). But I have a tendency to keep old clothes as long as they are still in pristine condition, even if I don't wear them often, for example because they don't fit me 100 per cent. I decided that this doesn't make any sense and that I should throw out these things. So, with Ludwig's help, I reduced the amount of clothes which I have by approximately 30 to 40 per cent in the last two days.

The funny thing was that we didn't have only two piles, as one might expect. We had three piles: One for clothes to keep, one for clothes to give away and one for clothes to use for kinky pictures and clips and give away afterwards. You can see some items which made it to the third pile in the picture on the top of this post. I don't possess lots of kinky clothes and sexy lingerie (I am always fascinated when some female fellow kinksters write about the number of sexy panties they possess), either, so everything that can be used for a picture story or one of our fun clips is welcome.

Speaking of fun clips: Ludwig and I had originally planned to film our LOL Day clip in the recent days. But then, Ludwig came up with an important insight. In 2012, almost the only kinky adventures we had were those that were directly linked to this blog, like testing new implements, making photo stories or filmclips. There hasn't been much private, spontaneous action, though, since all the stress has put me into cuddling mode and taken away my sex drive almost completely. But how can one be inspired to make good kinky clips if that's nearly all that is left of one's kinky adventures?

Consequently, Ludwig and I have decided to focus more on our private fun and play next year and only do things for the blog if we really feel inspired for them. I have no idea what this and all the other changes that are about to happen will mean in practice for the future of this blog. Maybe we will be blogging less frequently or maybe we will even be more inspired once we have had some time for ourselves. I can't tell you, yet. All I know is that for Ludwig and me 2013 is going to be a year full of big changes.

For now, we wish you all a happy and healthy New Year. May 2013 be a good one!

Friday, December 28, 2012

Spanking Haiku

Winter is the perfect time to take a foray into the realms of poetry. Mindful of our educational mandate, Ludwig proposed that we should rejoice our highly esteemed readership with a collection of contemporary haiku, composed by none other than your merry blog hosts themselves:

Frosty winter night.
Young lady by the fireplace -
bottom glowing, too.

New Year's party fun.
Drunk husband tumbles home late,
meets her frying pan.

Domcat majestic,
august ruler of his realm,
drinking tasty milk.

The end of the year,
fireworks illuminating
the whip in your hand.


Last, but not least, a slightly critical view on modern mainstream spanking art:

Naughty boys smoking,
hot female teacher turns up -
ouch, the swishing cane.


With this, today's excursion into the world of spanking haiku comes to a closure already. If any of our honourable readers would like to regale us with their own works, we would be delighted!

Monday, December 24, 2012

Mrs Santa


When the holiday season comes closer, Mrs Santa has a very busy job. She has to make sure that all the nice people get their well deserved presents.



And of course all the naughty adult boys and girls have to get what they deserve,too.




When all the presents have been delivered and all the naughty ones have been set straight, Mrs Santa usually feels rather worn out. But, as you all know, behind every strong woman there's a strong man. And so, Mrs Santa can be sure to get the attention and relaxation which she needs so badly.




Afterwards, she easily falls asleep, having the most delicious dreams.




With that, we want to wish all our readers a peaceful, happy and relaxed holiday season. And to those who celebrate it: Merry Christmas!

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Fun With Spam

Since it's almost Christmas, I thought it was time for some lighthearted fun on this blog. So, I've decided to take something that's usually quite annoying – the spam filling our spam folders -, and turn it into something to laugh about, as Hermione already did a while ago. Of course, most spam comments aren't funny (and the amount of spam has become worse, as Our Bottoms Burn recognized, too), but in the context of being posted on a kinky blog, some of them get some very interesting unintended meanings. So, here we go (I left the wording of the comments as it was, including all the mistakes).

At first there are the people who obviously share their kink very open in their families, with friends and even colleagues. Like these guys:

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Wow, this piece of writing is nice, my younger sister is analyzing these things, thus I am going to inform her. Commented on: Hostel II: The Revelations of Guard #3. Okay, so what exactly is your younger sister analyzing: Kinky judicial punishments or the production of spanking porn? Anyhow, she seems to have very fascinating topics of interest and a very open older brother...

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And then we have the people who seem to be very impressed by our blog and our posts. Isn't it nice to get so enthusiastic comments on one's writing?

I love what you guys are up too. This type of clever work and exposure! Keep up the great works guys I've incorporated you guys to my personal blogroll. Commented on: A Blogiversary Spanking. Clever work and, not to forget, a bit of exposure – I would say that's a combination which describes the ambition of our spanking blog quite well (especially regarding a post that includes a kinky video)!

I'm impressed, I must say. Rarely do I encounter a blog that's both equally educative and engaging, and let me tell you, you have hit the nail on the head. The problem is something that too few folks are speaking intelligently about. I'm very happy I found this during my search for something regarding this. Commented on: Where No Man Has Spanked Before. Well, hit is the right keyword, but actually not the nail on the head, just my bottom with his hand. You are right, though, we definitely need more people who talk intelligently about their first-time erotic spanking experiences (especially since we have to make up for some awful BDSM-related trashy literature that has definitely been read by too many people).

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And finally, there are also helpful suggestions for enhancements of our site. Here a typical example:

I believe what you wrote made a ton of sense. However, think about this, what if you composed a catchier title? I mean, I don't want to tell you how to run your blog, but suppose you added something that makes people want more? I mean "Subject: Humiliation" is kinda boring. You ought to peek at Yahoo's home page and watch how they create post titles to grab people interested. You might add a related video or a related pic or two to get people excited about what you've got to say. In my opinion, it could bring your posts a little bit more interesting. Commented on: Subject: Humiliation. Thanks for your wonderful advice! You are of course right, humiliation alone is indeed boring. Would "Humiliated Spam Smart-asses" be catchier in your view? Anyhow, I absolutely agree with you, there is nothing better than a video or some pictures to get readers of kinky blogs "excited". Thank you!

So, that was our little excursion into the world of funny spam. I hope you had a good laugh! I think especially in the hectic time so shortly before Christmas there are lots of things every day which can potentially be annoying. Just like being flooded with spam, as we have been in the recent weeks. I wish all of us that instead of being angry we can take a step back and laugh about the potentially annoying things we are all confronted with every day. Hey, if nothing else, annoying incidents can at least give us fodder for kinky fantasies! I wish you all a relaxed and peaceful preparation of and for the holiday season.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

The Final Test: Shoot Report

 
So, it has finally happened! The first-ever video I shot for a professional producer is online. And it's the most severe scene you have seen of me so far. I've just taken a (nervous) look and I like the final version Pandora has edited very much. You can watch a preview clip at the beginning of this post. In my opinion, the music is fantastic and the editing is great as well! I was a bit confused at first, though, because the action scene is interrupted by tai chi sequences. But those sequences appear as a kind of meditation which my character creates in her head in order to remain calm and deal with the pain. So, the interruptions are a bit unusual, but they give the scene another special touch. And maybe Pandora releases the pure action scene as a special bonus one day if many viewers would prefer that? I am even content with my own performance (even the spoken parts), despite of being very critical about that generally. I've no idea whether the scene will be to the viewers' liking as well, though. No scolding, no punishment, no screaming, no tears. Just tai chi and a very severe consensual caning between a master and his student. And fond memories of a great shoot.

After having told you about the preparations for the shoot in our last post, Ludwig and I are going to share our memories of that special shoot with you this time. As in our last post, you are going to find Ludwig's thoughts in brackets and bold letters and mine in standard letters. It's a long post, so make yourself comfortable. Here we go:

On the morning of the shoot, Ludwig and I got up early and I prepared myself in the bathroom. Then we went to the shooting location. I was quite nervous and hoped not to lose my grip. I'm not so sure about the exact sequence of events, but I think the first thing I did was warm myself up for the tai chi demonstration. Pandora shot a bit of behind-the-scenes material and prepared the set, including a beautiful mirror. As some of you might know, I have a thing for mirrors in spanking scenes, so I loved that!


[Indeed, Kaelah has a thing for mirrors. We used one in our Kaelah's Introduction video which is available for free on this blog as well. The effect in a corporal punishment video can be quite nice - you get to watch two perspectives at once. Mirrors are tricky to set up, though, because you have to avoid filming the camera in the mirror while still getting the angle you want for the desired perspectives. That can take a long while to get right when you are doing a video with a static camera. But in this case, we had Pandora as a camerawoman, so the mirror did not pose as big a challenge.]

Then Pandora asked me for an interview. I just hoped that my English would be good enough that morning to answer her questions spontaneously and fluently, despite of my nervousness. To my surprise, it all went well and my self-confidence increased. The behind-the-scenes report is almost as important for me as the scene itself. It sets the scene into the bigger context of kinky fantasies and kinky exploration, and I think that's great and gives the scene an even more personal and therefore also erotic touch. The report also shows the safety measures such as the disinfection of the cane, and we talked about the agreements we had made beforehand in order to make this a good experience for me. I was very happy when I had the feeling that I managed to express myself well. For the second part of the interview Ludwig joined us and shared his view, too.


[As a viewer, I love behind-the-scenes reports and interviews. I often find them as interesting as the films themselves, because they give you a glimpse at the real people behind a CP video, their thoughts and feelings. I think Kaelah and I give a pretty interesting glimpse with the stuff we filmed there.] 


Afterwards, we started shooting the indoor tai chi sequences. Pandora's partner Thomas Cameron, who is experienced with martial arts, joined me for one demonstration (which is not in the final video). I only practice tai chi for relaxation and don't have a martial arts background. I admired Tom's skills and flexibility. He hadn't practiced the moves for a long time, though, and so I led the demonstration by announcing the figures. I was proud that someone so experienced as Tom felt comfortable with me leading the demonstration. Then I performed two more sequences on my own, using a wooden training sword and a fan. The daylight flooded the room and filled the scenery with beautiful colours.

The interviews and the shoot of the tai chi sequences calmed down my anxiety and prevented me from panicking in anticipation of the action scene. It was a combination of conditions, some of them incidental, which made me so calm. Of course Ludwig knows me well enough to deliberately support me with his behaviour. He let me do my thing and therefore gave me the feeling of being in control, while remaining in the background, helping with the preparations for the scene and making sure that I was okay and that all safety measures were taken. The tai chi itself made me relax, too.


[I quite like staying in the background for the most part during a shoot. In a way, it is a natural extension of your task as a top. In most CP videos, and very evidently in this particular scenario, the spankee is the real star of the story, while the top is more of a supporting character. The paradoxical thing about it all is that, even though the attention is focused somewhere else, you as the top actually have a more active role during the CP scenes, and more things you can potentially, actively do wrong, like mishit a stroke.]

And finally the demonstration with Tom gave me lots of strength as well. The reason for this is as follows: When I am anxious, telling me that everything will be okay doesn't help all that much. Holding me can be helpful, but only in the context of helping me to let go and cry, which wasn't what I wanted at that time. The best help against anxiety for me is thinking about or doing something that gives me the feeling of being in control. And leading the demonstration with Tom did exactly that.



When Pandora asked me whether we should film some more tai chi sequences outdoors or directly move on to the action scene, though, I felt that I really wanted to get over the caning and not build up any more anticipation. And so the dreaded part suddenly was very close ahead of me. Pandora suggested to film the little introductory conversation, the bending over and the first three strokes in one take. And that's what we did. The dialogue wasn't scripted and I was too nervous to think of any spectacular lines. The conversation turned out to be very short. The main part for me was to confirm that I wanted to take the final test of my own free will and that I felt ready. At Ludwig's command I turned around, pulled down my trousers and assumed the position as we had planned it the evening before.


[The position we had found during our experimenting the evening before was the best one aesthetically. Kaelah bent over the table with an arched back, her hands grabbing the far edge of the table and her knees and upper legs thrust slightly forward underneath it. It made for an elegant position overall, and Kaelah's bottom looked even sexier than usual. From a practical point of view for me as the top, however, it was quite a difficult position. Kaelah's bottom was positioned rather low, and its lower part angled away from me under the table, which made it hard to hit. I had to bend down quite a bit myself in order to be able to hit Kaelah's backside the way I wanted. Moreover, we had pulled up Kaelah's pants right to the edge of her bottom. Again, it looked great, but it left no room whatsoever for a low mishit.]

Now, I have already written about several general aspects of the caning in my post Healthy Severity, but I want to tell you a bit about my thoughts throughout here. Ludwig took aim and suddenly the first stroke landed. He started almost full force right from the beginning, as we had agreed. It hurt so much, I could hardly believe it. I managed to count the stroke, though, and to struggle through the next two as well, gripping the edge of the table with my hands, pressing myself against the table, throwing my head back and gritting my teeth, but not making a sound other than some suppressed hissing. If I hadn't known that there would be a break after that, though, I guess I would have panicked, at least a few strokes later. We took a little break so that Pandora could rearrange the camera (we had only one camera, so it had to be rearranged several times to get different shots). I was still amazed how much the strokes had hurt.

We agreed to do a batch of six strokes next. As I assumed the position again, I hoped that the break had already helped my body to adapt to the pain and that the next strokes wouldn't be as horrible as the first three. How wrong I was! The strokes came hard and fast. After the third or fourth stroke I was about to safeword and the only thing that kept me from doing it was the knowledge that there weren't many more strokes to go. When the caning stopped, I suddenly felt a rush of heat going through my body and I started feeling dizzy. Fortunately, I was wise enough not to try to toughen it out and to pretend that everything was fine. Instead, I asked Ludwig whether he had already drawn any blood (which he hadn't) and lay down on the cold ground for a moment to cool down and to stabilize my blood pressure. Pandora opened a window and asked whether I was fine. Thanks to the quick reaction I was and I soon felt better again.



Pandora rearranged the camera and we took some time until I had fully recovered. Then we started with the next set of strokes. The batches were all between four and eight strokes long. Usually, we did six strokes. One of my biggest fears was to miscount, so every new batch started with me asking: "The next stroke is number x, right?" The strokes didn't become much easier to bear and I didn't go into any kind of subspace, either. But my self-confidence increased every time and I didn't worry about whether I would be able to make it through the next set any more.

Ludwig's aiming was great! At first, two strokes had gone a tiny little bit too far to the right for my taste, so I asked Ludwig to stand a bit more to the left. After that the strokes were perfect and no softer flesh on the outer side of my bum cheeks was hit. My special position was very difficult for Ludwig, though, as were the many breaks which didn't allow him to get into a flow. There weren't any mishits, but Ludwig involuntarily managed to hit the crease between my bottom and my legs much more often than he wanted. Which, as those among you who have experienced these kinds of strokes know, meant some additional challenge for me.


[I am more critical of my aim myself - which is normal, given that one always tends to be most critical about one's own performance. Kaelah's position turned out to be as tricky from a practical perspective as I had foreseen, and I accidentally placed a few of the strokes low so that the cane partly hit Kaelah's bottom and partly her pants. One or two strokes even went completely on the pants, and of course, that always happened when they were in full view, never when the camera was on Kaelah's face! Dreadful. Granted, it was a much more accurate caning than the "all over the place" strayfests you see in some Eastern European productions, where tops who have no business being in a film manage to hit the lower back or the hollow of the knees. But it could have been better for sure.] 

[With a 50 stroke caning, what you obviously want to do from an aesthetic point of view is cover the whole bottom with a nice, parallel set of welts, from the upper edge of the "target zone" to the lower. I usually do this in three steps. First, I hit with full force until I am at around stroke 20, always aiming for the middle of the bottom. With the full-force strokes, some will go right on target, some a bit higher, some a bit lower. But all will be within the acceptable zone, and through the scattering effect, I elicit a decently spread out set of striples already. Next, I try to fill out the "blanks" with some softer, more accurate strokes, which usually takes until around stroke 30. Once I have covered the full bottom this way and hardly any blanks remain, I administer the remainder of the strokes at full force again.]
 


As I already wrote in my Healthy Severity post, the original number of strokes we had agreed upon was 30, with the option to increase the number spontaneously, should I feel good enough to take more. I actually wanted to do 50 strokes, but I didn't want to put myself under too much pressure. Ludwig was quite sure that I would use the option to increase the number of strokes, but he was wise enough not to tell me about his thoughts. Because he knew that for me this wouldn't come over as reassurance but as an expectation that could be disappointed and therefore as additional pressure.

Ludwig's assumption was of course right. Even before the 30 strokes were over, I signalled that I wanted to do more. I was feeling good (as good as one can feel given the amount of pain created by those cane strokes) and strong enough to take it one step further. I knew that I had to take this chance, since it might be a once-in-a-lifetime situation. So we went on after 30 strokes and after 40 strokes as well.

And then it was over. We shot a very short final sequence with me being sent on my way and the action scene was in the can. After having inspected my marks, which I loved, I lay down on the table which we had used for the shoot. I think I also had little bruises on the front of my hips from pressing myself into the table during the caning. Pandora had asked me whether I wanted a cushion, but I had refused to take one because I thought that it looked better without. Pandora brought me an icepack which she and Ludwig had prepared beforehand on my request, and Ludwig helped me to cool my rear end to reduce the bruising right from the beginning. I was happy and buzzing. And then I enjoyed my reward – a big muffin! I hadn't eaten any sweets in the days before the shoot to be in good shape, and now it was time for some sugar.
 

[It felt good to have done it, to know that everything had gone well, and to see how happy Kaelah was. I had never felt real comfortable with Kaelah's position during the caning, and I had once again placed two strokes a tad too low, partially hitting her pants, right during the last five-stroke sequence when the camera was fully zoomed in on the bottom and the marks. But from my recollection during the filming, most of the footage would be pretty good, and I did not feel like griping about a few imperfect strokes forever. Overall, we were both elated to have the scene in the bag. When we filmed the final conversation between the master and his student, I snuck in the line: "Pain does not have to be an enemy to be feared. It can be a friend and ally of yours." It was a variation on what Colonel Kurtz says about "horror" in his big monologue in Apocalypse Now.]

As expected, it didn't take me long to recover. We made another short interview and I demonstratively sat down on the hard wooden table for it. Despite of all the breaks during the action scene, we were ahead of time. So we decided to do some more tai chi scenes before lunch (this time outdoors, as suggested by Pandora). I was in a calm and happy state by this point and very glad that everything had turned out so incredibly well. Then the shoot for my first professional spanking clip was done. We ate lunch and prepared ourselves for the next scenes to come.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

The Final Test: Preparations


Now it's bound to happen very soon. The first scene I have ever shot for a professional producer will be released on Dreams of Spanking. And what a scene! It's a fifty strokes severe caning and a scenario based on one of my very personal favourite fantasies. I've already written a bit about the caning itself and the reason why I wanted to do such a severe scene again after my very first try in private. In this post and the second part which will follow soon, Ludwig and I want to tell you more about the fantasy on which this scenario was based and the day of the shoot. We thought it would be interesting to integrate both of our perspectives into one (two-part) post, so you are going to find Ludwig's thoughts in brackets and bold letters and mine in standard letters.

The caning scene which we did for Dreams of Spanking in March 2011 was my second severe caning. I am not so much into extreme severity in private play, but like Ludwig I am of the opinion that it can be worth to "go the extra mile" in order to create a memorable spanking clip. When we filmed our first private severe caning experiment (which will be published for free very soon) in December 2009, I was quite convinced that this would be a "once in a lifetime" experience for me. The level of severity seemed so much on the edge of / outside my usual comfort zone that I didn't expect to ever have the desire to do something like that again. Actually, the main reason why I did that first severe scene wasn't that I desired the experience in the first place, it was the desire to have done such a scene as a special, bonding experience with Ludwig and to have an informed opinion about the severe scenes which he had done as a top for Mood Pictures and for Lupus Pictures with which I didn't really feel comfortable.

[When Kaelah and I did that first, private severe caning back in 2009, I had urged her to wait a bit longer with it - it was less than a year after her first practical experience with spanking, I argued, let us take a little more time and maybe get there in stages. But Kaelah said that waiting would not make it easier and that she just wanted to do that severe caning and get it over with. I respected her reasoning and her decision. Before I ever topped someone in spanking play, I had taken a harsh, Mood-style caning from a pro domme myself, an experience I found invaluable as a top and when discussing the sometimes controversial subject of severe caning videos. I could understand that Kaelah wanted to be able to participate in those discussions with an informed opinion, and that she also wanted to do the scene as a gift to me. However, I made a point of assuring Kaelah that she should not feel pressured in any way by me to do the scene, and she assured me that she didn't, that she wanted to do it out of her own initiative.]

That first scene really brought me to my limit (and beyond) and I wasn't very happy with the first batch of 25 strokes because I went into panic mode and hyperventilation. But, to my surprise, the second batch of strokes went much better and I even enjoyed watching the resulting scene on video. With that in mind, I suddenly developed the fantasy about a year later to do another severe scene for a professional producer, using the experience which I had gained during my first try in order to make this a good experience all around.

[I thought that the first, private scene went very well under the circumstances, and I love the resulting video footage. I  hope to be able to finally edit it over the New Year holidays so we can publish the video for you (it is going to be a monumental editing job). But no matter how much I lauded it, Kaelah was never fully happy with the scene and what she considered to be her "unsexy" reactions during the first 25 strokes. Still, it came as a bit of a surprise to me when she told me one day that she wanted to do another severe caning, for a professional producer this time.]

For that, I needed a producer who wouldn't set me under pressure and who would give me the time and the breaks in between strokes which I needed in order not to panic. I also needed a producer who wouldn't insist on frontal nudity, because that's outside my personal comfort zone. And I only wanted to do such a special scene embedded into a scenario which fit my personal fantasies. Given all these preconditions, our lovely friend Pandora and her actor-driven site Dreams of Spanking seemed like the right person and place to do this. And that turned out to be true.

[Indeed, Pandora was the ideal choice. Kaelah and I had shot videos with her the year before, and enjoyed the collaboration a great deal. Dreams of Spanking also promised to offer an intimate, almost family-like shoot atmosphere, where Kaelah could take as many breaks during the caning scene as she needed, without feeling like she was holding up an entire armada of technicians as would have been the case at, say, a large-scale Lupus Pictures production.]

Pandora liked the idea of doing a severe scene and she was also happy with the consensual scenario which I had worked out and gave Ludwig and me lots of creative freedom. The idea for the scene was very simple and loosely based on a scenario which I had fancied very much on Spanking Central. They had shot some caning scenes between a martial arts trainer and his students which were right up my alley.

I wanted an explicitly consensual and not punishment-related scenario, though. And so our scene is about a martial arts trainer and his student who is about to leave for a not specified journey which is going to be a great challenge. We left it to the viewers' imagination to decide where the student is going and why. I had the picture in my mind that she was leaving for China in order to practise with other students in a renowned and strict martial arts school. In order to prepare her for the challenges to come and to give her the self-confidence that she can make it through, the trainer and the student have agreed on one final endurance test which will require all her willpower to accomplish. The trainer completely left the decision whether to do that painful test or not to his student. She even has to confirm her decision directly prior to the test again and to take and keep her position voluntarily without any restraints or any external pressure to comply.

[I liked the consensual nature of the story a lot myself. I'm a fan of "brave girl" scenarios where a spankee seeks out such a caning, for whatever reason, out of her own initiative. Consensual scenarios like that are done much too rarely in spanking videos, so ours would stand out nicely among the myriad of formulaic, standardized schoolgirl / secretary / housewife punishment videos out there.]

The scene is not so much to the taste of punishment enthusiasts, but the consensual setting and the idea of a martial arts inurement practice are at the very core of my kink. And they are scenarios which are less common, so I hope that some fellow kinksters who have a similar taste are going to enjoy them as well. Pandora, Ludwig and I agreed to keep the spoken parts very short and rudimentary. Instead, we decided to embed the caning into an almost meditative composition of pictures and music, showing me practising Tai Chi. Given that I don't like my German accent, anyway, that I wasn't sure whether I would be able to talk coherently in anticipation of the scene and that I have a thing for the mixture of colours, music and fluent moves, I loved that idea. With all these details clarified beforehand, Ludwig and I went to England for my very first professional shoot.

I have to admit that I was a bit scared, though, fearing that the experience might become too overwhelming for me. Ludwig and I had already filmed two clips with Pandora before (which are also still to be published) which had been great but at the same time already very challenging for me. I am an INTJ and a control freak. Furthermore, spanking is something very personal for me, especially when I am on the receiving end. While filming amateur clips with Ludwig doesn't cause me lots of stress, making amateur clips that involve other people as well definitely is a challenge already. Regarding the action itself, medium severe scenes aren't problematic, either, but my first very severe scene absolutely brought me to my limit. Having made that scene in private, though, meant that I had all the time in the world and could have delayed or even cancelled the scene any time if necessary. I could also decide not to publish it if I didn't like the result and I could take it down any time (even thought that wouldn't delete the copies which would already have been made). But, a shoot for a professional site which of course meant that I wouldn't have any influence on the editing and the publishing, and then a very severe caning, too? I just hoped that I would be fine and not already a crying mess before the action scene even began.

[Kaelah and I talked about these insecurities in detail in the weeks before the shoot, which I think helped both of us be more at ease by simply getting everything out in the open and analysing it. I understood the challenges and had Kaelah's well-being on my mind more than anything else, but I was pretty optimistic and upbeat about the prospect of the shoot myself. We had done a severe caning scene in private, and we had done videos with Pandora before. Combining the two would be new, and a somewhat more daunting task, but overall we would not be doing anything fundamentally unlike what we had done before.]

We already met with Pandora on the evening before the shoot to talk through the plan for the next day. After all, we didn't plan to shoot only one scene. A geeky science-fiction scenario featuring Pandora, her partner Tom, Ludwig and me and a sweet little scene between Pandora and me only were supposed to follow the martial arts scenario. I definitely wanted to do the severe caning first in order to clear my mind for the next two scenes. From my first-ever severe caning experience I knew that I wouldn't need a very long time to recover, so I was sure that the caning wouldn't cause any physical or mental restrictions other than the need to rest some minutes afterwards.

Ludwig and I also had the chance to visit the location where we would be shooting the next day. We used this opportunity in order to try out different positions for the caning. As you know, I am not so happy with my waist-to-hip ratio which can make my bottom look very huge when I take an unfavourable position or choose the wrong angle. I definitely wanted to bend over a table for the scene, because I needed a place to rest my upper body upon and an edge which I could grab with my hands in order to cope with the pain. With Ludwig's help (I am lucky to have a boyfriend who is very honest with me concerning my look without making me feel ugly) we found the best possible position. That meant that I would have to put my feet beneath the table, though, and stand on tiptoes, which wouldn't make keeping the position any easier. But, hey, who cares about being comfortable as long as the result looks good?

[I could not help but notice the irony that Kaelah's fretting over how big her bottom looked from which exact camera angle seemed, on the face of it, a tad out of touch with the "Body positive! Hooray for non-conventional beauty!" philosophy of Pandora's site. Chuckle, chuckle... But seriously, I don't think there is a contradiction at all between being body positive, appreciating oneself with all of one's real or imagined "flaws", and simply wanting to look as good as is reasonably attainable when filming a sexy CP video. There is a legitimate difference between unhealthy obsession and healthy pefectionism-for-the-special-occasion. I do the same mild, unobsessive fretting before an F/M scene. In the weeks before filming the Ludwig's Comeuppance clip with Niki Flynn, I rode a stationary bicycle and did all kinds of other exercise I had not done in years... There is no better incentive for finally doing something good for one's health than making a spanking clip!]

And so we went to bed to get some rest and catch some sleep before the great adventure would start on the morning of the following day. I was excited and I am sure I slept a bit more fitfully than usual in anticipation of what was about to come.

To be continued...

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Kinky Fantasies:
Sheldon Cooper and Amy Farrah Fowler

 (Sheldon Cooper. Picture courtesy of Wikipedia.)

After the first kinky fantasies episode featuring Leroy Jethro Gibbs, I wanted to write the next instalment of this series for quite a while. A special event which has already been discussed on the Spanking Blog (many thanks for having been the first to make me aware of this!) and by Ana, Pandora and Erica finally motivated me for this post and also answered my question whom I should feature next. Obviously, there has been a spanking on The Big Bang Theory, one of my favourite TV series, and between two of the best characters involved. Since I am a trekkie, a Wil Wheaton fan (who makes recurring appearances at The Big Bang Theory) and a total geek, I guess I don't have to explain to you, why The Big Bang Theory appeals to me so much. Heck, I even have some friends who don't dare watch the series – because for them it simply is too real!

The series and the characters in a few sentences:

In case you have been living under a rock, here is a short introduction to the series. The Big Bang Theory is centered around four male geeky (or, except for Leonard, rather nerdy) scientists and their friends. Apart from being very proud of their respective works, the main characters are science-fiction (lots of Star Trek in this series!), fantasy, video game and comic fans. Sheldon Cooper (portrayed by Jim Parsons) is a theoretical physicist with an IQ of 187 and two doctor's degrees. But he lacks any understanding for social graces and irony. Amy Farrah Fowler
(portrayed by Mayim Bialik), who becomes his girlfriend despite of Sheldon's disinterest for physical closeness and love, has a Ph.D. in neurobiology and loves social experiments. She enjoys social interaction more than Sheldon and also develops a desire for physical closeness with him. But she also shares many of Sheldon's character traits and therefore is a great match.

Kinky label:

For me, Sheldon and Amy are a perfect example for an equal couple. Actually, it seems that Amy often is the one who is more active and takes control in their relationship in practise. You can see that in the following little excerpt which in my opinion exemplifies Amy's and Sheldon's respective behaviours and their relationship. But since Sheldon sets up a 31-page "Relationship Agreement" which Amy has to sign, I think one can say that he brings in his view as well. In my opinion, the two of them are predestined to be switches kink-wise.


Kinky references:

Until now, the most kinky reference between Amy and Sheldon was the two playing doctor with Amy wearing a Star Trek uniform which took place in the aftermath of Amy's above shown experiment. To me, this already has almost the same appeal as a spanking. But now, there has been a real spanking scene featuring Amy on the receiving and Sheldon on the administering end. You can decide for yourself, though, who is in control here.

Kinky appeal:

For me, Amy and Sheldon have a high kinky appeal as a couple because they are both strong and intelligent individuals and they share a relationship as equals. Their nerdy side makes them all the more attractive. I have to admit that Sheldon sometimes also awakens my motherly instincts, especially when he is ill and falls back into innocent child-like behaviour.

My favourite scenario:

Actually, I could imagine Amy as well as Sheldon on both the receiving and the administering end of a light-hearted, affectionate spanking. The spanking scene as it was shown on the newest episode is one of the few spanking scenes in the mainstream media which really touched me in a positive sense and made me grin from ear to ear. I love the consensual background. I love the affection. I love that there is no "strong man teaches errant young lady a lesson" pathos, even though it is formally a discipline spanking because Amy pretended to be still sick and therefore in need of pampering when she wasn't (I don't see it as a real discipline spanking, anyway, which is most probably one reason why I enjoy it so much in the context of being between a couple). I love the fact that Amy is so obviously enjoying the spanking and probably seeing it as a wonderful social (and erotic) experiment. And I love the fact that Sheldon tries to be strict but doesn't like disciplining Amy, and that he has no real clue what is going on erotically. Well, enough said. Here is the excerpt for you to watch:


Lessons learned:

The combination of kink and geekdom is darn sexy. But then, this insight isn't new, is it?

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Bent Over in New Zealand


As those who have read my recent posts might have realised, I am in need of a holiday. Unfortunately, now is not the time for it (yet). So, what does one do in such a situation? Yes, exactly, looking back on a wonderful holiday one had in the past and gaining new strength from the memories. I decided to share some of those fantastic holiday memories with you.


The pictures in this post were all taken on a trip to New Zealand. It was the first time for both Ludwig and me to visit this great country and its beautiful landscape simply blew us away. As you can see, being in such a amazing environment brought up naughty thoughts on my behalf. And so we created this little photo series.


The photos were of course all made in a hurry because we tried to make sure that nobody was watching. But quite frankly, I don't think that the Kiwis are so easily shocked by kinky naughtiness. Take a look at this advertisement we came across and decide for yourselves. Of course in my pervy mind the ad is even naughtier than it was presumably meant. Because when I read the word "mistress", the first thing that comes to my mind isn't a female lover...


Looking at these holiday memories makes me smile. I hope you enjoy the pictures, too. Because of the great landscape, I mean. Taking these pictures wasn't even our only kinky adventure during that wonderful holiday trip, though. We came across a very special pervertible implement as well. So, stay tuned for more New Zealand fun.