Lea recently wrote a very personal and touching post called Basket Case which resonated with me on many levels and which provided me with lots of thought-fodder. One thought that came up was about experiences which alter our lives forever. Experiences that make a permanent change which doesn't allow us to go back to our old lives ever again.
For example, I consider(ed) myself to be a rather strong and independent woman. I didn't have a boyfriend for a long time and I got along very well. But now that I have found Ludwig, I know how great it can be to have a mate. And I think if our love fell apart, I would never be able to go back to those old times when being alone was completely okay for me. Because now I know how wonderful it can be to have a mate and I would surely miss that.
The question which I would like to ask you is: How about erotic CP and kink? Is the discovery of the kinky community, the discovery of not being the only one to have these kinds of fantasies a life altering experience?
I think for me, it definitely was. Because it opened my mind to ways of living which I hadn't considered possible. On the other hand, I have heard of people who went back into a state of denial again after having found like-minded people and after having already admitted to themselves that they are kinky. I'm not sure whether anyone ever managed to keep that up for a long time, though, once they knew about the existence of the kinky community.
And what about the first adult spanking experience? Do you consider that experience to be life altering? Does it mark a point of no return? Or is it possible to go back to a life without kinky activities afterwards?
I'm not sure what the answer is for me. One thing is clear: I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with a vanilla partner any more. If Ludwig ever left me, I would look for a kinky partner only. But what if I were single? Would I simply go on without spanking, as I would most probably without vanilla sex? Or would I look for play partners and go to lots of spanking events? I have to admit that I don't know for sure. I assume that my life wouldn't contain much spanking action, though. Maybe some occasional play with good friends. But I don't think that I would look for a regular play partner or go to lots of spanking events and parties. Most of the time fantasies would most probably be enough for me, just like it was before I met Ludwig.
Still, I consider my first adult spanking to be a life altering experience. Because it has opened a door to a world in which I found my first love and learned how to feel womanly and sexy. And these are experiences that changed me forever and that no one can ever take away from me.
I would love to hear your thoughts about the subject! Do you consider any of the experiences which you have made with spanking and kink to be life altering? If yes, which one(s) and why? Do you think that you could go back to a life without kink, without a kinky relationship or without play? Please share your thoughts in the comment section!