My First Day At School - On Camera!

So we're finally back from our trip to the UK. I feel like I've been riding a roller coaster for the last ten days: Rapid speed, permanently changing places and directions, unexpected loopings – and no time to process all the new impressions mentally. Quite frankly, I now need a holiday from the holiday. But before heading off to offline kink-free land, I want to tell you a bit about one very special day of our trip which consisted of more kinky firsts than I think many people experience in one year.

As I already mentioned in our travelling journal, Ludwig and I shot two spanking clips with Pandora and Tom which will be published as free content on our blogs. Since this was my very first experience of that kind, Pandora suggested that I should be the chief creative force. So I came up with two schoolgirl scenarios I had in mind and in cooperation with Pandora (the voice of realism and pragmatism) we fitted them into a realistically shootable format. And Pandora found two great titles for the clips: “Protection Racket” and “Proof of Innocence”.

The first story is about two friends who independently admit to being the culprit of the same crime. Both of their stories aren't very convincing, though, and their teacher soon finds out what's really going on and why the two friends are both so eager to take the blame... My idea behind this story was to create a spanking scenario with two friends being punished together, supporting each other and holding hands through a simultaneous spanking scene bent over the opposite sides of a table. Since Tom unfortunately couldn't join us in the morning, we had to change the scene from a two tops and two bottoms scene to a scene where Ludwig had to deal with both girls. But we still fitted the (almost) simultaneous spanking in and it was wonderful to co-bottom in that scene with the lovely Pandora!

In “Proof of Innocence” the eager beaver and goody-two-shoes Adelheid (a role that didn't require much acting on my part) is accused of being responsible for vandalism in the arts classroom. The strict headmaster Mr Clarke (Ludwig) is, in contrast to her sympathetic form teacher Mr Purvis (Tom), not willing to believe that she hasn't committed the crime. Since all evidence is speaking against Adelheid, she has to find a rather unusual way to prove her innocence and clear her name. The trace then leads to Rosemary (Pandora), the girl who reported on Adelheid to the headmaster. But it seems that Rosemary isn't the end of the chain. Apparently, there is at least one more person involved who is the real culprit and made up the plan to get the unloved eager beaver into trouble...


The role of Adelheid and her special way of dealing with a wrong accusation was something that had been on my mind for quite a long time. The whole scene also included some real-life events from past times and it was great to set them into a new context and to give vent to all the aggressions which are still inside me even today. Actually that was the most liberating experience on that very special day. I was told that my angry glances at Pandora, or rather at Rosemary, were very convincing! And the great thing was that I could do all of that knowing that I wouldn't hurt anyone because I was angry with the fictional character Rosemary, not with Pandora who was bringing that special story to life with me. Releasing aggressions without hurting someone actually is one of the main essences of my kink, a topic on which I'll write a separate blog post some time in the future.

Pandora already wrote her own account of how the idea of making the clips together arose and of the story of the first clip, accompanied by some of the stills we shot. I have to admit that it is quite difficult for me to write a consistent post about the shoot because I've made so many new experiences on that one single day which could all be worth at least one paragraph of their own. So, instead of writing a never-ending story, I've decided to give you an overview of all the little and big firsts in list form (in order of appearance...):

• playing with someone else than Ludwig – Still something I don't long for in private play, but a great creative experience with the right people on camera, thanks a lot Pandora and Tom for that opportunity!
• doing a scenario in a foreign language – A partly very scaring prospect, but it works quite well when playing someone who is really confused.
• being a schoolgirl in a role play – I'm best when I can be the eager beaver – what a surprise!
• bringing to life a storyline I've created involving more than two characters – Something I can't thank Pandora and Tom enough for!
• co-bottoming with a kinky friend – I'm still impressed by that special look in Pandora's eyes and her acting skills. And Ludwig did a great job dealing with both of us.
• getting an OTK spanking on a chair with my head hanging down – Definitely a very nice position, unless it lasts too long and one starts sliding down.
• being spanked with a ruler – Yummy, what a pity we couldn't do it harder because my bottom had to be unmarked for the second scene.
• standing in the corner, hands on my head, spanked bottom on display – Not really my thing in front of a camera, but might be interesting for private scenes.
• holding the hands of a friend while both of us are being spanked – Just loved that two friends position with Pandora!
• wearing hold-ups for a spanking – Want more often!
• being caned by someone else than Ludwig – I felt 100 per cent safe in Tom's hands and he was a fantastic supportive form teacher.
• playing with two tops in one scene – Tom and Ludwig turned out to be a great team and both did a good job with the cane.
• being spanked with a school cane with a crooked handle – Well, they all hurt, but the crooked handle ones look gorgeous in a school scene.
• bending over a table and gripping the far end during a caning – Something I wanted to do for a long time, very nice position!
• being made to watch someone else being spanked in a scene – I'm glad I didn't have to pretend to enjoy Pandora's caning, it's much easier for me to be sympathetic.
• and of course all that with two cameras running – Thanks to Jimmy for doing a tremendous job!

So, that's it. Quite an impressive list, isn't it? Honestly, I still don't know whether this special experience was the beginning of more clips to come or whether it was a once-in-a-lifetime event. Being in front of a camera for a spanking clip on the bottom-side still scares me somehow and makes me feel very vulnerable. These feelings would be even stronger if I worked for a professional producer without having any control (or with having at least considerably less control) over the plot, camera angles and the editing. But regardless of how this part of the journey will or will not continue, the shoot with Pandora, Tom and my mate Ludwig definitely was a precious experience! And I'm looking forward to seeing the final clips.

Hmm, thinking about it, the journey actually did already continue only three days after our shoot with Pandora and Tom. I give you four buzzwords: Ludwig's creative debts, Leia-Ann Woods, football and topping! Well, the ones among you who read this post carefully might already have realised that I wrote about feeling vulnerable in front of a camera playing on the bottom-side. But that's another story full of firsts to be told on a different day...